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| Saturday, March 10th, 2007 | | 12:39 am |
| | Friday, February 9th, 2007 | | 1:47 am |
The Truth Won't Be Hard To Find
Life's coming into focus again, after several personal hurdles, I've come to realize a few things. I've always been a dreamer, no denying that. I've always wanted the fantasy, and thats just suicide. Cause more and more, I'm finding that the fantasy is bullshit. Theres what I'd want, except theres all the baggage attached, or it never lives up to my expectations anyway. I'm finding that I want a lot more stability in my life and theres nothing wrong with that. I need to be there for the people that have been there for me far longer than I deserve. Because, what I did have was meaningful. It was real, it wasnt a fantasy. It was good. And sure there are issues that come with it, but they're just run of the mill kinda issues, and theres a lot more good than bad. So okay life, one more change and I think we'll be back on course. And one more before the year is out. Current Mood:  optimisticCurrent Music: Stevie Wonder - I Believe (When I Fall in Love it Will) | | 12:59 am |
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heart unfrozen! You gain 29 exp pts. | | Sunday, January 7th, 2007 | | 12:15 pm |
Mr. Chainsaw
Ahh, break sucks. 2007 needs to start not sucking. they killed saddam on my birthday and now the creator of ramen noodles died. at least he imparted his gift upon the world. in other news, fuck. i think ive been dumb, recently. and i swear on akatosh and all the devines that i shall attempt not to be so dumb anymore. if that means my heart needs to be as cold as it was 5 years ago... then thats fine, thats a fine compromise, i cant fuck up my chances anymore. Accept the swill, swallow the crow, deal with my shit, accept everything and move on, ykna. id be doing everyone a disservice by falling from grace. It's better now to be alive Sleeping is my 9 to 5 I'm having nightmares all the time Of running out of words that rhyme Everything that you could never say Would never matter anyway I took a hammer and two nails to my eardrums long ago Current Mood:  apatheticCurrent Music: alkaline trio, and a lot of it | | Tuesday, January 2nd, 2007 | | 2:19 pm |
A look back on the turn of the century.
_Blunder_: noun, A blunder is a spectacularly bad decision or action, a mistake or error with detrimental consequences to the party that makes it. It is typically attibutable to faulty perception: the result of not reading signs, or misinterpreting available information. Naturally many sensible decisions, which even in retrospect were carefully taken, may also prove disastrous mistakes. synonym: to bungle or _botch_ I've been witness to many blunders. I used to play chess a lot, i made them all the time. Ive seen them made all the time, humans make them more often when a desicion is made by one person. It is unilateral desicions like this that end in spectacularly dismal ends. I talked with a few people about Saddam's death this weekend, I've heard many views, but my view still hasnt changed. My grandfather told me that unless you are confident, think it through. But i am certain of this, regardless of all i've heard. Saddam Hussein's hanging was a terrible, ugly, bloody, and most importantly, uncivilized action. Anthropology teaches us that when a country takes over another, the usual case is that the occupier believes their way of thinking is innately better than the subjegated, anthropology also teaches us that in almost every case after the turn of last century, this view is wrong, utterly, and without exception. The British occupation of india, the german occupation of poland, the russian occupation of afghanistan, the US occupation of Vietnam. Pagan thought, and i agree, that there is a great deal to consider, for one, we're a first world country, a leader in global politics and currently have the largest nuclear stockpile in the world (around 10,000 out of about 28,000 nuclear missles). But in American occupied Iraq, a national leader had a noose tied around his neck and was cursed, spit on, and killed in public to the cheering of masses. Death has been looked on in this conflict with a certain amount of apathy and severe delusion. Thousands (~2900) lie dead from the attacks in new york, their deaths looked upon as a global tragedy. 56,000 iraqi civilians are dead, men, women, and children. since the third gulf conflict erupted (2003-present) and yet americans seem to have forgotten this, after their vow to 'Never forget.' They seem to have forgotten what death means, it means these children will never grow up and become world leaders, it means these men and women lived horrid terrifying moments before death placed its icy fingers over their eyes. The same terror i'm sure the 2,983 civilians felt before those towers tumbled down. Of course, i agree with Anth as well, history didnt start til 1945 when nuclear arms came to being. It would be unrealistic to look too far back. Saddam deserved to be ousted, he made more blunders than we ever did. He didnt deserve to be hanged. He deserved to be tried by a multinational tribunal. They did it to make the new iraq look strong, but i fail to see how this would help things. We merely stablized the region, unilaterally, and the only way to keep it stable is to stay there cuz once we're out, another warlord will step up to the fight. What a horrible blunder on America's part when we have bigger things to worry about. America isnt the only one to blame however, shame on the UN for not taking a bigger role in curbing unilateralism like this, or enforcing the rules it makes. Its been a minefield of horrible mistakes leading to this. Saddam should have complied with weapons inspectors, america should not have tried so hard to get them out of iraq so we could begin the bombing. The un should have had a more direct role. America's allies should not have rolled over for them. Saddam should not have gassed his own people. Reagan and Rumsfeld should not have sold iraq the gas to do it. the CIA shouldnt have trained Usama, the list goes on. It isnt that i totally disagree with every desicion, its that every desicion has been reactionary when it should have been well thought out by a multilateral approach. So really, are we so fucking different? were we in the same situation, in an unstable region like the middle eastern theater, with microcosms of insurrgents and rebels within your country, killing themselves and your neighbors for a political goal without the great stretches of stability that the US has had. I mean we've already proven we have a population dumb enough when 51% percent of us voted for a legally retarded man, when the support for him was around 40 percent. So really, picture yourself in his position, imagine (if you are christian perhaps, protestant likely or catholic for you new jersians.) that some methodists just bombed your starbucks, killing 30 and wounding 100. next week, radical scientologists bomb some place of worship, killing hundreds. you feel boxxed in, unlike the american occupiers, you dont have another country to run back to. you're stuck here. what would you do? would hanging be an appropriate punishment for it? How very uncivilized, America. As it stands, its seven minutes to midnight. (The Bulletin of Atomic Scientists (a group of mannhatan project-era scientists, with trustees including albert einstein) has maintained a clock to doomsday since its inception 55 years ago, as a sort of view on how dire current conflicts are. In its time, it has reflected many disasters and progressions, from the cold war arms race of 1984 (three minutes to midnight), to great strides in disarmnament like the START accords in 1991 (17 minutes to midnight). To now, with George Bush completely ignoring the START II accords and restarting arms production, we're seven minutes away from midnight. The current 'time' does not yet include the events of north korea's nuclear tests, the desicion to move the clock is made by a group of people, not just one.) TheBulletin.org Current Mood:  worriedCurrent Music: the slow ticking of a clock | | Saturday, December 23rd, 2006 | | 2:56 am |
| | 2:45 am |
 Dear Santa...
Dear Santa,
This year I've been busy!
Last Saturday I set ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) benjapra's puppy on fire (-66 points). Last week I committed genocide... Sorry about that, horshac (-5000 points). In July I pulled over and changed baalesh's flat tire (15 points). In June I pulled partygirle's hair (-5 points). Last Tuesday I signed my organ donor card (28 points).
Overall, I've been naughty (-5028 points). For Christmas I deserve a lump of coal!
Sincerely,
wyldpinkdaisies |
| | Monday, October 30th, 2006 | | 1:49 am |
catharsis
This is probably going to sound like alkaline trio lyrics or something, but re examining my life these last couple days i can see little neuroses that tell me, im a bit more fucked up than id hoped i would turn out to be. talking with kevin tonight, and the journey ive been taking this semester. I can see the definite proof im not as well adjusted as i think i am. Or pretend i am. Not that this is a slight against me. its just allowing me to see the ways in which my life is far from anything resembling normal in anyway. I know this isnt the end of the journey, and i dont think im done learning, but i think at least a path thats better for me may be in sight at last. Current Mood: optimisticCurrent Music: alkaline trio - take lots with alcohol | | Monday, September 4th, 2006 | | 1:13 pm |
a stunning realization
my life is a dawsons creek episode... Current Mood:  confusedCurrent Music: jimi hendrix | | Sunday, August 27th, 2006 | | 12:44 am |
panic attacks
been getting a lot of them lately, and its funny, because i dont normally have a problem with my station in life, perhaps its all the doodee that ive had to trudge through through the past year, or maybe its just apprehension, but the entirety of existance that seems to equate to personality i want to call god in this instance seems to be playing a joke Me: ahh, what a lovely morning... the sun in shining and... oh, hello god. God: oh, hello there, how're things? Me: a lot better than they seem to, but im still happy as ev- God: -Not for long! PANIC ATTACK'D!!!!111 Me: AAAGGGHHHHH! Ow! My entire life hurts! perhaps its not quite so comically, but through my exquisitely disiplined mind, its focusing on those kind of things that pushes the terror to the side. of course sometimes its not so easy. Thinking about debilitatingly sad things, and things that despite being years ago, still make me grit my teeth, or the kind of pain you never get over comes ba- see... still panicing myself. | | Tuesday, July 25th, 2006 | | 6:28 pm |
Ive changed my mind, i want something, bigger, better, vibrant. Something that makes people say "What in the holy fuck was that?" (more than they already do)  Something like this in terms of doodads, baubles, trinkets, gadgets, and generally busy things. but bigger and probably with only three or so colors. like this.  btw, just for the record, those are synth/real hair braids, and straight synth braids wrapped with black electrical tape to make it shiney and whippy. and leds throughout two dreads and across the area above the bangs. Current Mood:  haunted by mitch hedburg | | 12:01 pm |
I've found a way to make dreads without potentially losing my hair when i need them gone. By using the same method for making Dread Falls, i attach the fake dreads to my own hair at the the top of my own dreaded or breaded hair. attach with an elastic, and steam or boil the extension, my hair and the extension should be fiberously glued for about 6-9 weeks before i would need to take them out and redo them as my hair grows.  The result would look like this. Your thoughts? should i do this, or just dread it? Current Mood: japanese?Current Music: Bulldog Mansion - Its my birthday | | Thursday, July 20th, 2006 | | 11:40 pm |
| | 2:51 pm |
im a whore too, i made a meez too. thanks regina.  Current Mood: soul is as dark as eyeshadowCurrent Music: The Pixies - Where is my Mind | | Wednesday, July 19th, 2006 | | 8:07 pm |
( Click here to post your own answers for this meme.)
| ✓ I miss somebody right now. |
✓ I don't watch much TV these days. |
✓ I own lots of books. |
| × I wear glasses or contact lenses. |
× I love to play video games. |
× I've tried marijuana. |
| × I've watched porn movies. |
× I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship. |
× I believe honesty is usually the best policy. |
| ✓ I curse sometimes. |
✓ I have changed a lot mentally over the last year. |
× I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me. |
( it goes on... )
Reminds me of that time they needed to bring in a hazmat team to hose mo hose me hose me down. Current Mood:  crazyCurrent Music: dwarves - better be women | | 6:01 pm |
have i mentioned how amazingly batshit insane i get over these somewhat lonesome summers I have been staring at this http://gman-needs-therapy.ytmnd.com/ for 3 hours... send aid! Current Mood: mesmerizedCurrent Music: The Avalanches - Frontier Psychiatry | | 12:55 am |
it should be noted that Feathers Mcgraw is near the top of my top fears on the list. the one further down the list.... Scientology... http://scientologytalk77.ytmnd.com/ Current Mood: ScientologerificCurrent Music: O fortuna | | Monday, July 17th, 2006 | | 10:19 pm |
meme
STOLENED!
if someone gave me 5 grand to spend on myself, no questions asked, heres my list.
Clothes: $0
Makeover: $0
CDs: $0
Sea-doo: $0
trip to japan: $0
trip to iceland: $0
hooker: $0
8-ball of illicit powdered sugar: $0
sam adams: $0
put out contract on that creepy penguin from wallace and gromit: $0 (close second)
rave in my basement: $0
kitty cat play pen with tiny little plastic balls to jump in: $0
full size playland with human sized plastic balls: $0 (fucking tempting)
another hooker: $0
College and the people there that i love more than all the first stuff: $5000 Current Mood: apeshitCurrent Music: mellincolin - no cigar | | 10:09 pm |
We have to figure it out tonight
break it up before you break down
i´m not happy
whatever that means
i can´t let you go
i build my world around you
what do you think about me and you
yell at me
yell at me
c´mon say something
is the passion dead or is it coming back
i can´t let you go
i build my world around you
what do you think about me and you
we have to figure it out tonight The beatsteaks rool. I feel like that year in highschool i had insomnia... thats right... an entire year... 1-4 hours a night... tops... those were strange and fun times. Btw, i found my old punk cds, so guess what im listening to? Btw, WLSD lovers, sound test coming up soon. no timeframe yet, still coding the server gui. Current Mood: betterCurrent Music: Punk O Rama #5 | | Sunday, July 16th, 2006 | | 12:21 am |
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